A Malaysian KPOP Fangirl Confession

I don't usually blog as you can see my last post was like 2013 *coughs* But when I do, I make sure it's all words.

As everyone know, recently the news of KPOP idols "molesting" our own Muslim girls are all over the social networks and also the NATIONAL PAPERs and now even INTERNATIONAL NEWS. So, yesterday I decided to tell everyone HOW KPOP had changed my life and I believe many others. Below are the contents I wrote on my Facebook. 

Idola Korea Dicabul Fan Perempuan Dalam Mimpi

I remember clearly when I’m 14 years old, friends around me were CRAZY over a Korean (at that time i don’t even know they are from Korea LOL) boy band named DBSK. When they showed me their pictures I am like what is wrong with their hairs and outfits? What language are they speaking or singing? I don’t understand a shit about what's so good about them. They are pale, skinny and “beautiful”. I’m more into My Chemical Romance and JJ Lin at that time. Well, at least i understand what they singing. My friends had DBSK posters and albums and I will forever be judging them, HARD.

TVXQ when they just debuted. Anyone missing the OT5?!!

Well, now after 8 years, instead of judging, I am a small percentage of so called “crazy fanatic fangirls” that are being judged by people around me. Until this very day, I’m still AMAZED by how much KPOP, the music and language that was once so unfamiliar to me, had changed my life 180 degrees.

Yonghwa don't judge me.

It all started when I’m 16 years old and a few close girl friends of mine introduced me to Super Junior. During that time they are still “junior” lah. I remember the MV they shot in Malaysia with Twins Tower and Bukit Bintang as the background LOL. Their song Sorry Sorry seriously was the hit during that time. But the Music Video had SO MANY members and i seriously cannot memorise their faces nor their names. I only know how to hum along the rhythm and when it reaches the “Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry” part, i can sing it confidently. I remember when TY (my table mate during that year) showed me It’s You MV, i can finally picked the “bias” member that I like. Proudly, until now Yesung is still my favourite in Super Junior (I LOVE YOU OPPA!).

HAHAHAHA i laughed so hard when I saw this online.

Slowly i listened to all Super Junior songs, watched their MVs, watched all the Korean variety shows with english hard sub with Super Junior members on it. At the same time i had to endured the super slow internet and waited patiently for all my videos to load. I laughed along when they do something stupid on TV, i sang their songs in the shower, I screamed whenever I saw Yesung’s part in the MV. Well, thats how i passed my last year of high school. Not a big fan of KPOP but no doubt a proud and happy Ever Lasting Friend (non kpoppers, FYI thats the fan club name for Super Junior, NOW YOU KNOW!).

ELF is one of the biggest fan club in the world. Check out our blue ocean!

When i first stepped into my college, I was greeted with a lot of unfamiliar faces. It’s a whole new world to me again. My housemates that time came from different parts of Malaysia. One from Penang, one from Johor. Totally have zero in common except the language we speak. I can easily recalled our first subject that we took was a computer subject. Some Introduction to IT or something, so we used the computer labs a lot. Most of the time after we finished our tutorials, we have some times for ourselves and if you sit at the back row, you can easily see everything on your other classmates desktop screen. On a beautiful Tuesday with bright blue sky and singing birds, one of my classmate was playing High High by TOP and GD. Well it’s catchy and the MV was pretty awesome too. Not to forget how handsome TOP actually looks at that time with his platinum blonde hair and sharp jawline. Long story short, from that day onwards, i found something in common with a group of my classmates, which spells K P O P.

Can you please appreciate how good looking this duo are? LIKE HELLOOOOOO.

I attended my first concert the Korean Music Wave on 24 September 2011 with my classmates. It was an out of the world experience. To be able to watch so many line ups right in front of you and they are all alive, is a pretty unexplainable feeling. Like you had been craving for fried chicken for the longest time and finally a plate of crispy savoury fried chicken is finally in front of your eyes. All you want to do is to dig in and taste all the juicy flesh and crispy skin. Yums. (Disclaimer, please think this in a healthy perspective.) 

KFC anyone? 

I screamed and shouted and danced and jumped along with the loud bass speakers that were just right beside my ears. It’s a type of healing whenever i attended any concerts. Maybe its just me but I believe music is a therapy for me.

Memorable first concert (pic from Google Image)

Ever since the first concert, I cannot forget how good the feeling was. I saved all my pocket money for concerts. I’m always eager for my favourite bands finally coming to Malaysia. Throughout the fan meetings, showcases and concerts i had went, I met SOOOO many other fangirls like me. Some were extremely nice (during Big Bang concert I almost died of dehydration, but luckily a fan is nice enough to share me her last bottle of H2O. I still remember you girl!), while some, *coughs* just ain’t that friendly. However, I can tell you I met some of the nicest people through KPOP. No matter on Tumblr, Twitter or real life. It’s a kind of special bond. I always say, if you like KPOP, we can be best friends.

Block B at KWC

Ricky for Hari Belia

SS5 in Malaysia

Have you seen any other international idols dressed themselves like this?

Happiest 2 and half hours for us.

To my next life changing experience, I started to picked up Korean language because I desperately wanted to know what the heck they are talking on videos without relying on subtitle. It opened another curiosity of mine on a whole new language. No doubt it is HARD, and very complicated, but with the money i saved from my intern period, i enrolled myself to a language school and finally started my lesson on Hangul (Korean Language). Once a friend actually complaint why I learned another language when I can’t even write or read my own language (Mandarin). I couldn’t answered him because well, its true. He must think I’m crazy, because of KPOP i learned Hangul. This will brings me to my next point.

After I graduated from my college, I’m like a floating sampan on the river without an anchor. I have no direction, no goals, nothing. Pretty much like most of the unemployed fresh graduates. I passed by a Korean cafe in the midst of renovation that time and decided why not I work as a barista to kill some times and earn some money. Send my resume, got a called for interview and I happily told my mum about it. Yet, she gave me a cold shoulder and condemned why a college graduated student wanted a job as a coffee shop barista. Oh well, every Asian mums’ dream is to see their children in suits, have a 9am to 6pm stable job, drive big car, use luxury bags. I don’t blame her. But I knew clearly I NEED THE EXPERIENCE. I want to try the service line. I like food and I like Korean culture, so why not.

Despite the huge objections from my family, I don’t give a damn and proceed working in the Korean Cafe in Mont Kiara. From there I can put my hard learned half tong water (means not so good if direct translate to Mandarin) Hangul in good use since the area is basically a mini Korean Town. Working there had been full with ups and downs but I totally enjoyed myself. I met awesome awesome colleagues. I got to eat all the Toppoki and Bibimbap and Odeng while working there and even the Korean bosses already recognised some of us and always gave us free service (means extra side dishes or extra foods.)

Me when I got free food.

Wow, this is getting longer than I expected. Once I start to write I cannot stop. But please bear with me a little longer. After 5 months in the cafe I know its time to go. Most of my colleagues had left and my mum starts nagging all over again. That’s also when I met the Korean Restaurant Director I am working with now. I am forever grateful to meet him and he takes me as a family. I now have a job that I like, a house to live in, all my favourite food, and also a new Korean family. All the Korean directors treat me like a part of them and teach me a lot of new things about the Korean culture.
AND can you believe ALL these awesome things happened because I love KPOP? It all started from the MUSIC everyone is judging now. I will never be where I am now if not because of KPOP.

I got this rush to write all these because of the latest controversy regarding B1A4 fan meeting. I can see how our local media trying to defame the boys and as well as the poor fangirls. Why it’s okay for our local actors and actresses hug and kiss on national TV? Why it’s okay for our fellow Islam ladies to hug and kiss their boyfriend (not married) on the street? Why no one condemned them but just because B1A4 members are not Islam and the girls who hugged them wear hijab they are being scolded and criticised like this? I cannot believe the title our so called “media” wrote on their title. “Dicabul” (Molested)? Please check Dewan Bahasa on the meaning of DICABUL you idiots. I am a Chinese and my Bahasa Melayu is better than hang. Entah dari mana berani panggil sendiri Journalist/Media.

I’m so disappointed with people spreading hates and fake informations on social networks. You people need to stop being such a racist. KPOP is a genre of music and they had provided all the fangirls in the world with so much of happiness and laughters. They inspired tons of young girls and boys to chase their dreams. They only spread positivity to all the fellow fans. Check out the amount of donations all the fans gave in the name of their idol for their birthdays. Check out how the idols take care of the fans when its winter or when the fans got hurt. You people only know how to point fingers and hide behind your desktop/laptop/whatevertop screens. Keyboard warriors eh? Not so brave after all.

Islam is one beautiful religion, but should not be abused like this by you guys. I believe Islam teaches human to be nice and forgiving. The fangirls might made a mistake, but MUST YOU SCREAM AT THEIR FACES ON HOW WRONG THEY WERE? Teach them. Guide them. Show them. Not merely typing it as your article titles and shamed them in the public eyes. Kalau I jerit kat muka hang dengan air liur sekali tengok suke tak. Suddenly everyone on the web become uztaz and uztazah. Suddenly everyone got NO SINS except the fangirls. Suddenly Korean Pop become Kristian Pop. I give you a like okay?

One of the B1A4 member that was accused of molesting.

FUHH. It’s tiring to type all these out, i’m out of breath. LASTLY, you people don’t judge my grammar boleh tak? Cause i know I’m bad. But my England pretty powderful. I just hope that fangirls all around Malaysia continue to be yourself. Don’t care whatever others throw at you. We had gone through 2014 (if you like KPOP you should know it was the worst year in history), this year will be nothing. People with big enough eyes can differentiate the good and the bad. Just continue to hold on with what you believe. We do not need haters to like them. Cause all they do is well, HATE.

Tell me WHY!

We just gonna continue be FAB-U-LOUS excuse me.

Disclaimer: The title is to reflect how stupid the titles media wrote. Is that what their brains are filled with? And I wish I can cabul them please come to me SungSiKyung! Also,I did not include any negativity of KPOP because I like positivity. And you cannot stop me because I wrote all of these, not YOU. If you want, go write a whole article of how bad is KPOP, i don’t even care LOL.

;D 

OH! And let me include a picture of pale, skinny, and beautiful boy everyone hates (credit as on photo)

Look at how skinny, how pale and how beautiful Choi Siwon is ;A;

AND, i have so many things to say after another wave of news came out today on the paper. SO SO MANY i don't even know where to start. Please give me sometime and I will give you Part 2. I need to calm my tits down I'm sorry. Also thank you for all the GIFs image on the internet. 

Two . Zero

Hello! *waves* Was looking at my blog stats and realized I got readers from Canada, US and UK! Hello to you guys! Thanks for reading! :DD

PS: You'll see a lot of Thank You here. Please bear with me.

Two Zero signifies that I'm finally 20 YEARS OLD. Not yet 21 but seeing a "2" in front of my age is... weird. Hahaha. I still write 19 sometimes when I'm filling up forms because I still can't get used to it. Sooner or later I have to accept that I'm no longer a teenager.

Still remember when I was a kid, I was so pampered and adored by my 2 elder sisters. Maybe its due to our age gap. They are 10 years and 8 years older than me. Hence I become the "manja" girl in the family. My 大姐 (elder sis) will help me tie my hair and we go to the school with the same bus, so she will buy me sweets and snacks while me 二姐 (2nd sis) will watch TV with me, I'll wait for her to finish school with my mum and sometimes we do fight + get scolded together by mum .__." My dad also pampered me a lot as my mum always said I'm the "gold child" of my dad. Because he worked at other state, so every time he come back to home, he will bring me to supermarket and buy me food.

Gosh how I miss those old days :( Now me and my elder sis is in KL, 2nd sis at Singapore, Mom and Taiping and Dad at Gua Musang. So we were all separated for each other. Very very seldom we can have family gathering, not even CNY sometimes because 2nd sis working schedule is not fix. But every year without fail I will received many many wishes from them on my Birthday! That is why i love my Birthday! I feel so loved and blessed whenever I read their messages for me :) I'm so grateful that my parents brought me to the world. I got a nice family and a bunch of great friends ! What can I ask more :3

When the clock strikes 12.00am, I received a lot of super touching sms/whatsapp from some the friends. I still reads them now once awhile. I really love reading them. They make me know that I'm certainly not #foreveralone. In a relationship with : FRIENDS and BFFs.

Then I'm off to bed and go to class as usual. Come back and fetch my mum to Imbi as she is going to Singaporeeee. Come back and look at my empty room because she is no longer there to nag and scold me X__X Then by the time I come back, open my FB and saw the picture collage my LADIES did for me :'D

Thank you very much LADIES <3

It's amazing how our friendship last from Form 1 to now :') I love them to bits! Last year they did the same thing for me as well. Although I can't celebrate with them for 2 years now, but they still make me feel like they are all here with me. Thank you again!

Get ready for dinner with the DRM bunch! They never tell me where they are bringing me! 

Did the Gwiyomi HAHAHA. Sorry I'm not cutesy type. 

Around 8pm, Yong Tin and Dexter come and fetch me to the destination. Through the conversation of them with the others, I guess they bringing me to Daorae Taipan. And I'm right! Hahaha. Thank you for choosing Korean Food! Cause I mad love it! Omnomnom! 

Group photo! Thanks for coming <3

While ordering, almost get into a fight with the waiter there LOL. He keep forcing us to order more more more but we don't need that much! But he insisted! In the end we ordered more than we suppose to!! But only that one particular waiter. Others are damn nice and friendly and excited. Hahaha. They got so much energy in them.

Housemate + Coursemate + Brother : DEXTER! <3

While I am waiting for food, my iPhone beeps and I see this notification on Twitter. It's from my best friend back in primary and high school, my tablemate for one year, Ain. I open it and realize she wrote me a blog for my birthday! I can't stop smiling and almost tear thanks to her blog. I'm like mad damn touch by her words. Thank you very much Ain. You are the most awesome Malay friend I ever had. I will never forget how much we cursed at each other, but can never stop talking to each other. Thank you for the blog from the deepest of my heart. (You can read it HERE hahahaha ) 

And the foods are here!! 

Seaweed soup! A tradition of Korean to drink on birthday :DD

Sam gyup sal, teokbokki, some-pork, and kimchi jeongal!

Omnomnom. It's so damn good! Seriously need to go back and have the sam gyup sal!!

Me and YouU :3 

Finish our meal and they ask for the cake from the waiter! GREEN TEA CAKE. Thank you Pei Yie and MunKeong for the wise choice!

Happy 20th Birthday Ashley ^^

They sing me the Korean version of Happy Birthday song and I make my wish! :) 

Picture from YouU <3 Thanks for the artsy shot!

Picture from famous blogger JAM :)

Have polaroids taken thanks to one of the waiter there! He is very good with my polaroid! Even request us to take this :

Kisses from everyone *3* 

 Hence, we give them 4 pieces of my green tea cake :D Thank you for the good service Daorae Taipan!

OOTD : Denim Jacket and Printed jeans from H&M, Leather Bag from Topshop. 

2nd round at Murni Taipan! Just sit and chit chat some funny yet scary issues. 

I love you~ DO you love me? :P 

Pressie! Leather legging from Topshop and Shades from Thailand! That card is from my togetheralone Chinggu YT! Thank you all! Kamsahamnida!!!! <3

Thank you again for the super yummy delicious meal and the presents! Thank you for all the wishes on FB and Twitter. Thank you for all the loves! Appreciate it very very much until it spilled all over! I love every single one of you. I tell ya this post will be spam with the word THANK YOU hahaha. 

Have a goodnight everyone xx 

Koh Lanta, Krabi - Part 2

Day 2 

...of Krabi was all about... SLACKING and EATING and SLACKING. 

We signed up for a 4 Island Tour on the 3rd day so we basically can't figured what to do on the 2nd day. We decided to slacks rest away! Woke up at 9-ish to EAT BREAKFAST! Am I the only one who loveeeee hotel's breakfast? I just can't resist them. I 'll force myself to wake up just that I'm in time to have them. Nomnom. 

Basic Breakfast and it's BIG.

As usual - toasts, pancakes, hams, BACONSS, potatoes, kokocrunch + milk and some fruits to fuel the beginning of a great day! 

It's just morning but we were already changing into bikinis to hit the beach :DD Brought along a good book with me this trip so I can sunbath while reading. We spend the whole morning - afternoon just enjoying the sea breeze while took a lot of some selcas. 

My faithful companions <3 

The girls :D

US in self portrait mode!

The our stomachs rumbled so we head out to town for lunch! Went to Lanta Seafood Restaurant. Recommended to all tourists! Cheap and really nice food! 

Yummmm I'm hungry now! Missing Thai food D:  

Came back and more sunbathing + swimming time! Cause I don't really swim so I sit by the pool while watching 3 of them swim (or basically Xuan and SF bullying Ian). A couple from London who were staying in Lanta brought their dogs to the pool so the husband actually let me play with their poodle! His name is CHEWY! Missing my LeLe back at Taiping dearly while playing with him. After they went back, I join the two girls in bullying as well LOL. We had our pillow talks not on the beach, but in the middle of the sea -___-" 

Decided to walk along the beach to find a good restaurant for dinner! Found one after 15 minutes of walk. We had no idea what was the name, but the foods were good too! Oh well, EVERYTHING WAS GOOD IN LANTA, so don't ya worry :P

My silly wifey. 

We was teaching Ian how to SMILE in a picture. LOL And there you go! 

Decided to go out to the town again to buy some street snacks! 

The Chicken Kebab Ian had 2 days straight. Guess it's really good LOL

Matching clothes? Coincidence. 

Street of Lanta Town.

All the yummeh street foods!!

Bought back a bottle of champagne and sparkling juice as well as some snacks. Had some alcohol while playing poker AGAIN (We played it for 3 nights straight as well) and off to bed! Need to wake up by 6.30am the next day because we going on TOUR!!

Day 3

Woke up by 7am and had breakfast before we off to the 4 Islands Tour. We only paid 750 baht per person as there were 4 of us (the original price was 850 baht per person) which includes pick up from hotel to pier, 4 Islands tour (duh!), and lunch! The taxi came picked us up at 8.10am. One of the family from US that stayed in the same resort came along as well. The ride from Twin Bay to the pier took us around 25 minutes.

I'm gonna skip all the boring parts. SO the journey from pier to our first island took us 45 minutes X_X Can sleep. I really did :P But thank god we got 3 super duper lovely kids on board with us! They were the children of the family that I mentioned earlier! All of them were eye candies! Especially a 3 years old boy name William! MISS HIM OHMAIGOD. I bet my 3 other mates miss him as well. He is a CUTIE PIE *3*

Here we go captain! 

Reach our first snorkeling point! KOH CHEUK!

Spot the Batmen

I don't know to swim, hence I don't know ho to snorkel as well X_X So embarrassing. But I paid to snorkel, so i just dare dare jump into the sea since I got my life jacket. Its not so bad, but struggling in the middle of the sea can be pretty pathetic T__T I seriously need to learn SWIMMING :(

Second spot was the Emerald Cave! What a pretty sight (despite the scary pitch black cave -__-)

A mini beach INSIDE a cave!

This is baby Christopher! William's brother!! SO CUTE RIGHT!

Xuan with Quincy! 

Stop by Koh Kradan for lunch! SUPER CRYSTAL CLEAR SEA WATER!

Ian : What you want? Xuan: What's that in your mouth? 

Had simple lunch and we head to the 4th Island, and the last, Koh Ngai! Our second snorkeling spot. This time at least I can snorkel by my own without the helps of my 3 mates already. Our tour guide even caught us sea urchins to see. Went back to the pier and 4 of us really fall asleep cause TOO TIRED!

Reach Twin Bay by 5pm and all of us went for MASSAGE! I chose the Traditional Thai Massage, Ian chose the Sun Burn Treatment (the only who got super terrible sun burn because he was too stubborn to use the sun block -_-) and the other 2 ladies got Aloe Vera Massage. Seriously enjoyed my 1 hour massaging experience. My masseur was damn good. He pull and stretch me until I can feel all my muscles relaxed! The other 3 mates said theirs were really good too! Can try again next time if you happen to stay at Twin Bay!

Since all of us left with a lot of Bahts, we decided to have a GOOD MEAL! Went to Lanta Seafood again and order 7 dishes. When the waitress came with our food, she said "Ha! Mati kau!" LOL they got a shocked with the amount of food we ordered.

This is just a portion. Stir fried squid, Fried Fish, Steam Lala, and Seafood Tomyum Pot. We also ordered BBQ prawns, Green Pork Curry, and a Papaya Salad.

ALL THIS ONLY CAUSE US 1500 Bhat! Super duper cheap and the seafoods were all damn fresh and delicious! Gosh.. I miss the foods so much :(

Went back to hotel after our super awesome last meal at Lanta. Poker again and I finished a quarter of the champagne all by myself and got high /.\ They faster ask me go sleep if not I'm going to laugh non-stop.

Day 4

Last day at Lanta T__T Ate our breakfast and off to airport.

Had sunny side up omnomnom.

 Took some pictures with Quincy before we go!

Ian looked like a pedo -_-

Took mini van and only cost 300 baht per person. The journey was faster compare to when we first came. We slept all the way as well and in a blink, we were at the airport already :(

Krabi >>>>>>> Malaysia

Im sure I'll see you again!

To sum it up, it was a great getaway with my friends. Totally enjoyed myself so much! I love the people of Lanta seriously. Our resort's staffs, all the tuk-tuk drivers we met, the tourists. EVERYONE. All of them were so freaking nice and humble and down-to-earth. They locals really love their town. Throughout the trip, we don't even dare to throw rubbish everywhere. I actually keep my rubbish in my pocket and throw them into my room's rubbish bin. 

Koh Lanta is a great island to go if you wanna have a calm and relax holiday. No rush, nothing. Just the sea, the beach, the sun and YOU! 

DO consider Koh Lanta if you are planning for a getaway as well! :) 

Thank you Xuan, Sook Fang and Ian for accompanying me to this Krabi Trip. Appreciate it! LOVE BANYAK BANYAK.