A Malaysian KPOP Fangirl Confession

I don't usually blog as you can see my last post was like 2013 *coughs* But when I do, I make sure it's all words.

As everyone know, recently the news of KPOP idols "molesting" our own Muslim girls are all over the social networks and also the NATIONAL PAPERs and now even INTERNATIONAL NEWS. So, yesterday I decided to tell everyone HOW KPOP had changed my life and I believe many others. Below are the contents I wrote on my Facebook. 

Idola Korea Dicabul Fan Perempuan Dalam Mimpi

I remember clearly when I’m 14 years old, friends around me were CRAZY over a Korean (at that time i don’t even know they are from Korea LOL) boy band named DBSK. When they showed me their pictures I am like what is wrong with their hairs and outfits? What language are they speaking or singing? I don’t understand a shit about what's so good about them. They are pale, skinny and “beautiful”. I’m more into My Chemical Romance and JJ Lin at that time. Well, at least i understand what they singing. My friends had DBSK posters and albums and I will forever be judging them, HARD.

TVXQ when they just debuted. Anyone missing the OT5?!!

Well, now after 8 years, instead of judging, I am a small percentage of so called “crazy fanatic fangirls” that are being judged by people around me. Until this very day, I’m still AMAZED by how much KPOP, the music and language that was once so unfamiliar to me, had changed my life 180 degrees.

Yonghwa don't judge me.

It all started when I’m 16 years old and a few close girl friends of mine introduced me to Super Junior. During that time they are still “junior” lah. I remember the MV they shot in Malaysia with Twins Tower and Bukit Bintang as the background LOL. Their song Sorry Sorry seriously was the hit during that time. But the Music Video had SO MANY members and i seriously cannot memorise their faces nor their names. I only know how to hum along the rhythm and when it reaches the “Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry” part, i can sing it confidently. I remember when TY (my table mate during that year) showed me It’s You MV, i can finally picked the “bias” member that I like. Proudly, until now Yesung is still my favourite in Super Junior (I LOVE YOU OPPA!).

HAHAHAHA i laughed so hard when I saw this online.

Slowly i listened to all Super Junior songs, watched their MVs, watched all the Korean variety shows with english hard sub with Super Junior members on it. At the same time i had to endured the super slow internet and waited patiently for all my videos to load. I laughed along when they do something stupid on TV, i sang their songs in the shower, I screamed whenever I saw Yesung’s part in the MV. Well, thats how i passed my last year of high school. Not a big fan of KPOP but no doubt a proud and happy Ever Lasting Friend (non kpoppers, FYI thats the fan club name for Super Junior, NOW YOU KNOW!).

ELF is one of the biggest fan club in the world. Check out our blue ocean!

When i first stepped into my college, I was greeted with a lot of unfamiliar faces. It’s a whole new world to me again. My housemates that time came from different parts of Malaysia. One from Penang, one from Johor. Totally have zero in common except the language we speak. I can easily recalled our first subject that we took was a computer subject. Some Introduction to IT or something, so we used the computer labs a lot. Most of the time after we finished our tutorials, we have some times for ourselves and if you sit at the back row, you can easily see everything on your other classmates desktop screen. On a beautiful Tuesday with bright blue sky and singing birds, one of my classmate was playing High High by TOP and GD. Well it’s catchy and the MV was pretty awesome too. Not to forget how handsome TOP actually looks at that time with his platinum blonde hair and sharp jawline. Long story short, from that day onwards, i found something in common with a group of my classmates, which spells K P O P.

Can you please appreciate how good looking this duo are? LIKE HELLOOOOOO.

I attended my first concert the Korean Music Wave on 24 September 2011 with my classmates. It was an out of the world experience. To be able to watch so many line ups right in front of you and they are all alive, is a pretty unexplainable feeling. Like you had been craving for fried chicken for the longest time and finally a plate of crispy savoury fried chicken is finally in front of your eyes. All you want to do is to dig in and taste all the juicy flesh and crispy skin. Yums. (Disclaimer, please think this in a healthy perspective.) 

KFC anyone? 

I screamed and shouted and danced and jumped along with the loud bass speakers that were just right beside my ears. It’s a type of healing whenever i attended any concerts. Maybe its just me but I believe music is a therapy for me.

Memorable first concert (pic from Google Image)

Ever since the first concert, I cannot forget how good the feeling was. I saved all my pocket money for concerts. I’m always eager for my favourite bands finally coming to Malaysia. Throughout the fan meetings, showcases and concerts i had went, I met SOOOO many other fangirls like me. Some were extremely nice (during Big Bang concert I almost died of dehydration, but luckily a fan is nice enough to share me her last bottle of H2O. I still remember you girl!), while some, *coughs* just ain’t that friendly. However, I can tell you I met some of the nicest people through KPOP. No matter on Tumblr, Twitter or real life. It’s a kind of special bond. I always say, if you like KPOP, we can be best friends.

Block B at KWC

Ricky for Hari Belia

SS5 in Malaysia

Have you seen any other international idols dressed themselves like this?

Happiest 2 and half hours for us.

To my next life changing experience, I started to picked up Korean language because I desperately wanted to know what the heck they are talking on videos without relying on subtitle. It opened another curiosity of mine on a whole new language. No doubt it is HARD, and very complicated, but with the money i saved from my intern period, i enrolled myself to a language school and finally started my lesson on Hangul (Korean Language). Once a friend actually complaint why I learned another language when I can’t even write or read my own language (Mandarin). I couldn’t answered him because well, its true. He must think I’m crazy, because of KPOP i learned Hangul. This will brings me to my next point.

After I graduated from my college, I’m like a floating sampan on the river without an anchor. I have no direction, no goals, nothing. Pretty much like most of the unemployed fresh graduates. I passed by a Korean cafe in the midst of renovation that time and decided why not I work as a barista to kill some times and earn some money. Send my resume, got a called for interview and I happily told my mum about it. Yet, she gave me a cold shoulder and condemned why a college graduated student wanted a job as a coffee shop barista. Oh well, every Asian mums’ dream is to see their children in suits, have a 9am to 6pm stable job, drive big car, use luxury bags. I don’t blame her. But I knew clearly I NEED THE EXPERIENCE. I want to try the service line. I like food and I like Korean culture, so why not.

Despite the huge objections from my family, I don’t give a damn and proceed working in the Korean Cafe in Mont Kiara. From there I can put my hard learned half tong water (means not so good if direct translate to Mandarin) Hangul in good use since the area is basically a mini Korean Town. Working there had been full with ups and downs but I totally enjoyed myself. I met awesome awesome colleagues. I got to eat all the Toppoki and Bibimbap and Odeng while working there and even the Korean bosses already recognised some of us and always gave us free service (means extra side dishes or extra foods.)

Me when I got free food.

Wow, this is getting longer than I expected. Once I start to write I cannot stop. But please bear with me a little longer. After 5 months in the cafe I know its time to go. Most of my colleagues had left and my mum starts nagging all over again. That’s also when I met the Korean Restaurant Director I am working with now. I am forever grateful to meet him and he takes me as a family. I now have a job that I like, a house to live in, all my favourite food, and also a new Korean family. All the Korean directors treat me like a part of them and teach me a lot of new things about the Korean culture.
AND can you believe ALL these awesome things happened because I love KPOP? It all started from the MUSIC everyone is judging now. I will never be where I am now if not because of KPOP.

I got this rush to write all these because of the latest controversy regarding B1A4 fan meeting. I can see how our local media trying to defame the boys and as well as the poor fangirls. Why it’s okay for our local actors and actresses hug and kiss on national TV? Why it’s okay for our fellow Islam ladies to hug and kiss their boyfriend (not married) on the street? Why no one condemned them but just because B1A4 members are not Islam and the girls who hugged them wear hijab they are being scolded and criticised like this? I cannot believe the title our so called “media” wrote on their title. “Dicabul” (Molested)? Please check Dewan Bahasa on the meaning of DICABUL you idiots. I am a Chinese and my Bahasa Melayu is better than hang. Entah dari mana berani panggil sendiri Journalist/Media.

I’m so disappointed with people spreading hates and fake informations on social networks. You people need to stop being such a racist. KPOP is a genre of music and they had provided all the fangirls in the world with so much of happiness and laughters. They inspired tons of young girls and boys to chase their dreams. They only spread positivity to all the fellow fans. Check out the amount of donations all the fans gave in the name of their idol for their birthdays. Check out how the idols take care of the fans when its winter or when the fans got hurt. You people only know how to point fingers and hide behind your desktop/laptop/whatevertop screens. Keyboard warriors eh? Not so brave after all.

Islam is one beautiful religion, but should not be abused like this by you guys. I believe Islam teaches human to be nice and forgiving. The fangirls might made a mistake, but MUST YOU SCREAM AT THEIR FACES ON HOW WRONG THEY WERE? Teach them. Guide them. Show them. Not merely typing it as your article titles and shamed them in the public eyes. Kalau I jerit kat muka hang dengan air liur sekali tengok suke tak. Suddenly everyone on the web become uztaz and uztazah. Suddenly everyone got NO SINS except the fangirls. Suddenly Korean Pop become Kristian Pop. I give you a like okay?

One of the B1A4 member that was accused of molesting.

FUHH. It’s tiring to type all these out, i’m out of breath. LASTLY, you people don’t judge my grammar boleh tak? Cause i know I’m bad. But my England pretty powderful. I just hope that fangirls all around Malaysia continue to be yourself. Don’t care whatever others throw at you. We had gone through 2014 (if you like KPOP you should know it was the worst year in history), this year will be nothing. People with big enough eyes can differentiate the good and the bad. Just continue to hold on with what you believe. We do not need haters to like them. Cause all they do is well, HATE.

Tell me WHY!

We just gonna continue be FAB-U-LOUS excuse me.

Disclaimer: The title is to reflect how stupid the titles media wrote. Is that what their brains are filled with? And I wish I can cabul them please come to me SungSiKyung! Also,I did not include any negativity of KPOP because I like positivity. And you cannot stop me because I wrote all of these, not YOU. If you want, go write a whole article of how bad is KPOP, i don’t even care LOL.

;D 

OH! And let me include a picture of pale, skinny, and beautiful boy everyone hates (credit as on photo)

Look at how skinny, how pale and how beautiful Choi Siwon is ;A;

AND, i have so many things to say after another wave of news came out today on the paper. SO SO MANY i don't even know where to start. Please give me sometime and I will give you Part 2. I need to calm my tits down I'm sorry. Also thank you for all the GIFs image on the internet.